"What about me?" – Chihaya Anon Gets Left Behind: Analyzing the Heartbreaking Moment in MyGO!!!!! Episode 7 and the Starting Point of Character Transformation

The anime "BanG Dream! It's MyGO!!!!!" has been widely praised for its intricate and highly realistic portrayal of interpersonal relationships, with the seventh episode undoubtedly being the key chapter that pushes all conflicts to their peak. In this episode, the band's "adhesive," Chihaya Anon, who always strives to maintain the atmosphere, is completely "lost" after the disastrous collapse of their first live performance. This scene not only gave birth to the classic line "What about me?" but also became a crucial turning point in Anon's character arc. This article will take you back to this heartbreaking moment and analyze its significant meaning.

The Triggering Event: The Performance of "Haru no Kage"

To understand why Anon was "lost," we must first return to the trigger event—the performance of the forbidden song "Haru no Kage." This song is the only original piece from the former band CRYCHIC, and for Nagasaki Soyo, who is determined to revive CRYCHIC, it is both a sanctuary and a trauma.

During the first live performance, vocalist Takamatsu Tomori, driven by her genuine emotions in the moment, spontaneously chose to perform the MyGO!!!!! version of "Haru no Kage." This instantly ignited all the underlying conflicts. Soyo broke down on the spot and angrily left the venue immediately after the performance ended; Saki showed a pained expression in the audience before turning and walking away. The atmosphere of the entire band instantly plummeted to freezing point.

"What about me?" — The Hard Worker Completely Forgotten

Backstage, the chaos reached its peak. With Soyo gone, the band fell into disarray, and Tomori, the one who started it all, was pulled away in her confusion by Rikki, who held absolute trust in her, as the two went off to chase after Soyo.

At that very moment, only Chihaya Anon was left standing alone in place.

She was the one who first proposed forming a band, the one who worked the hardest to bring everyone together, the one who was so nervous about the first live going smoothly that her stomach hurt. She gave her all to try and glue this broken band back together, yet at the most critical moment, she was subconsciously forgotten by everyone. Tomori and Rikki's eyes were only on each other and Soyo; Soyo's anger was only focused on the phantom of CRYCHIC. No one saw Anon, no one remembered Anon.

Thus, she let out that cry filled with shock, grievance, and confusion: "What about me?" (私、私は？). This line was not just a question directed at Tomori, but an indictment of the entire situation. All her efforts, all her contributions, seemed to vanish into thin air at that moment. She, Chihaya Anon, was completely "lost."

Why is the Moment of Being "Lost" So Important?

This scene is profound because it brutally tears off the "genki character" mask that Anon had always maintained, revealing the vulnerability deep within her heart.

1. A Turning Point for Character Motivation: Before this, Anon's main motivation for forming a band was "wanting to be popular" and "wanting to gain recognition in a new environment," stemming from her inferiority complex due to her failed study abroad experience. But the experience of being "lost" forced her, for the first time, to confront her true feelings for this band and for Takamatsu Tomori, which were far more than just utilitarian.

2. A Test of Genuine Relationships: This collapse made her realize that a band formed by people with broken hearts cannot be sustained by superficial social skills and adhesive efforts alone. She had to learn to face others, and herself, more sincerely.

3. A Catalyst for Growth: It was precisely because she experienced this painful failure and sense of abandonment that Anon, in the subsequent tenth episode, had that heart-to-heart conversation with Tomori at the aquarium, ultimately establishing the band's new core of "moving forward together, even if we get lost." She transformed from a planner trying to control everything into a companion willing to be lost and grow together with her partners.

Conclusion: Finding a True Place to Belong from Being Lost

Chihaya Anon being "lost" in the seventh episode is one of the most representative "gut-wrenching" scenes in "BanG Dream! It's MyGO!!!!!", yet it is also an indispensable cornerstone for her character growth. The confusion and heartbreak of this moment allowed her to completely shed her initial utilitarian motives and begin searching for her true place to belong (居場所). Her story tells us that sometimes, getting lost is necessary to find what truly matters, and the deepest bonds are often born from shared experiences of brokenness and pain.

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